as an antidote to fear of death, i eat the stars

My piece is an experiment on the idea of light traveling through cosmic objects and flesh/blood. In an abstract space, these elements merge, and we begin to perceive the anatomy and the celestial as one.

This piece is composed of four sections.

I. Celestial pulse: an episodic textural arena of flickers of light.

II. Eclipse: The sensation of one planet taking control of the other through a long drone, interrupting the chaos. The video depicts this sensation with an abstract approach. Inspired by David Lynch’s elaborate dream sequences.

III. Heart Murmur: percussive feel depicting the bodily fluids moving, organs mutating.

IV. Synapse Relapse: The drone idea interrupts the music, this time putting an end to the unearthly feel of the growing incubus.

The title is inspired by the poem ‘Antidotes’ by Rebecca Elson, an astronomer and a poet.

Sometimes as an antidote

To fear of death,

I eat the stars.

Those nights, lying on my back,

I suck them from the quenching dark

Til they are all, all inside me,

Pepper hot and sharp.

Sometimes, instead, I stir myself

Into a universe still young,

Still warm as blood:

No outer space, just space,

The light of all the not yet stars

Drifting like a bright mist,

And all of us, and everything

Already there

But unconstrained by form.

And sometime it’s enough

To lie down here on earth

Beside our long ancestral bones:

To walk across the cobble fields

Of our discarded skulls,

Each like a treasure, like a chrysalis,

Thinking: whatever left these husks

Flew off on bright wings.