Hunting for Beauty

Composed in 2023. I wrote this piece right after a mental breakdown and leaving the mental institute...I can see the beauty all around me, but after a dark season this piece helped me recognize the beauty inside me...I found myself both metaphorically and physically standing at an abyss. I was on the opposite side of an overpass bridge ready to plunge into oncoming traffic..ready to stop the pain..I kissed mortality. For years I had romanticized my suicide…and here was the chance…but my creator had other plans for me…dying wasn’t it…that plan involved taking another breath…and then another…and another…Once I left the mental institute this melody danced throughout my soul. I usually see beauty all around me..but after a dark season this piece helped me recognize and. Honor the beauty inside me. These days I’m living with the concept of staying open and allowing my life to reflect that of  kintsugi…the cracks bruises scars … my experiences are all kintsugi…the beauty…