Despite the initially apparent cheekiness of my original program note, "Honestly, I'd rather not
say." I think this one line encapsulates many of my feelings towards Garrulous; Cut Up. In order
to be understood, all of the characters in Garrulous; Cut Up (as well as the performer) are
combatting some type of friction between themselves and their perception of self within their
surroundings. The chaotic nature of the music's unfolding provides many possible ambiguities
and misconnections for the audience. Each character, in their own narrative world, faces the
fraught task of somehow explaining themselves through speech. The bassist displays a fracture
of themself managing both their instrument and body to impossibly create a projection of the
work's complete image. These individual factors are already exhausting and impenetrable on
their own. As the piece presents itself as perpetually too much, the option to not attempt any of it
is tempting. It is my hope, however, that every time these motors are concurrently whirring we
are able to hear a small hum that connects these characters and learn more as to how they
contribute to one another's limitations and freedoms in self-expression. And that the temporary
glow of identification will not negate the understandable preference to "not say," but it could at
least provide a reason to try.