As someone who is bi-racial, I have experienced others constantly questioning my ancestry, always feeling as though I had to prove my heritage not only to others, but to myself. With multiple research articles finding a correlation between racial discrimination and “lower levels of psychological functioning as measured by perceived stress, depression, and overall ‘psychological well‐being,’' I know I am not alone.
Before writing this work, I interviewed multiple volunteers ranging from friends, mentors, and colleagues who come from a racially ambiguous background to hear their story. I asked about their ethnicity, people's initial reaction to their ethnicity, any internal struggles that may have occurred, and if they have found their place and community. Through these few weeks of interviewing and research, I learned so much about my peers and felt so seen and validated about my experiences.
I transcribed portions of the interviews into musical themes and motifs that are heard throughout the piece, creating voices of uncertainty and insecurity that goes through one’s head.
Shibboleth is a piece to help people with racially ambiguous backgrounds who find it a challenge to connect with certain communities to know they are not by themselves while informing listeners about a population of people that have an untold struggle of finding community and acceptance.